i have many things in my head but i cant seem to get them out. sometime i would wish say everything out.


well. the reason get clearer every time why we wouldn't get back. was it that it's human nature that everyone is selfish. people want the best for themselves and they would sacrifice others for it. sound like me but i hold my stand.

i had to admit that such person are really clever. they just happen to be there at the right time and the right place. like a example i heard, after the breakup, the friend came in to console and everything changed. oh well, this is why girls always like such people as they know how to use their words, how to talk with girls.

unlike people of my kind, aren't good with words. just like to say what we can do and not for the sake of doing it. we always lose out to such people that have the ability the sweet talk but then, we too have a advantage point. we only say what we can do. or i would say what i can only do. i dont make empty promises, i'm more of a honest person. i find it hard to do brag about things. or perhaps i wasnt 'trained' to do such ways. oh well, there is why there are always flirts around. the power of words just scare you.

i came to realise words actually have a very big impact on a person. especially if you're someone close to them, your words matter a lot.

i'm not a person that like to say stuff face to face, i cant find the courage to do so. or i should say, i cant find the courage to do alot of stuff.

sometime, i do think if it's due to my look and my size that i lose out.
i aint rich.
but sometime, someone had to sacrifice for the greater good. people always say that, if they're happy then it's worth it. but sometime, who would care about those that sacrifice, we too feel like you too.


do i really look depress? my friend said that. was it really so? was it that i really need you or you're just a want. was it that i still love you or i'm just not used without you around.