it is your birthday, i'm sad and emo because i couldnt have the chance to celebrate with you every years. i still remembered how we celebrate both our birthdays while we were still together.


time is running short on me.i'm running short on time. i dont have much time till army starts and i wouldnt have the time to chase you back. because i know, why my army starts. i wouldnt even have the time to hear from you or scout for your information.
i dont want it to be like that. i still want to care for you like no one ever did.

but then i realise, if i let my time past. very fast, army will catch up on me. and the idea of having you back would seem even more further.


this wouldnt be what i want. and i want to chase you back. but i dont know how. people around me asked to look around but i refuse to. it's just that i dont not wish to. like what i read, i'm a type of guy that would only cherish after i lost it as claimed by horoscope. and i had learned it the hard way.



i'm real scare, because when my time runs out. i know me and you, it's impossible anymore. bear with me, i dont have much time left. and i do not wish to move on.

or i should start to believe in, "what meant to be, would be."