horror scares me just like reflection of humanity.


i never dare to watch horror movies by myself, for what i watch often haunts me in my dreams.
i always choose the comedy genre because i wanted to be happy instead of being gloomy and i looked everywhere for the strength to be happy and feel happy everyday.i looked at inspirational movies/posters/pictures to find motivation everyday.
it just then i realise, i was finding reasons to keep myself alive. i was finding reasons to become someone i'm not. i'm trying to change myself unknowingly.

we're afterall humans, we do have feelings even when "we're happy go lucky".please do respect us, as well.



blog is suppose to be a area where you unfold your darkest secrets. but, i never allow it to be unfold. because fear is eating me inside out.
from young , i felt that i should rely on myself and now still.


my life is in a horror because i see the truth of humanity.
what haunts you forever. i couldnt answer because i realise that everything haunts for me forever.