somehow , i keep having dreams , dreams that make me so sad like today.
this make me reflect what i wanted to be and how much thing i am not capable of.
girl are the most important part of my dreams. it's happen at area of east coast park , there was a group of us but there wasn't anyone i am really close to so i tried to mingle around. we went cycling and when coming back , the girl says that she is tired and i offered to cycle her back and she agreed , we had the joy at the way back , when i even wanted her to kiss me and she did. ( it's all a dream!) when we reach , there is a group photo , there are chairs that people sit facing opposite of each other , at the end of the chairs , the places are for national players , i stood there. the photographer straight ask me , arent that place for national players , i stood up and shouted into his face , cant a fat person be apart of national players ( this make me realise , my past dreams of becoming a national badmintion player and able to slim down ) , everyone smile and took the photo and contine with the celebrate.it's the end of the party and we went to the carpark and of cause i am following my ' girl ' , i saw the car that the guy offer to send us home , it was a yellow porshe? , i offered myself to take bus home and everyone agreed. somehow i saw my parents at there gambling and decided to call them and what i heard is a plot of a sad story , exactly the same things they said , the show i think is name Tong Xin.


i seriously dont know what make me so sad that , i stoon up straight away and go brush teeth.
oh man , arent dreams supposed to be sweet. or my real life should =)


dreams are a reflect of what you normally do when you are awake , a reflection of show that you watched , a reflection of dreamsthat you once wanted to be , a reflection of your ownself.